Why We Can't Trust our Thoughts-Part 3

So as a Soul in the heavens Hashem tells you that you have an assignment on earth, that it is all for your growth and good and that there is more unlimited eternal pleasure in store for you as a result of your choices that coincide with your true self. One huge caveat. God can't give you the accomplishment and therefore the reward, you have to be the master of your choices and the master of your good. It's like the difference between inheriting a million dollars and earning a million dollars. If they both lose the money only one of them has turned themselves into a millionaire and can make it back. It's who he has become intrinsically.

To earn "life, pleasure and reward" through your choices one is placed in a world of maximum challenge whereby your choices become truly meaningful. It's no big deal working hard when your boss is looking over you, it's no big deal when you were little doing what your parents wanted you to do when they were looking right at you or even working out and eating well when supervised by a personal trainer. How do you do when you think no-one is watching? In the private confines of your life when no-one can see you, notice, no approval, recognition, -no currency that will move you ahead- what do you do then? That is what it is when Hashem places us in this world and seemingly hides. Choose right because it is right. The benefit of light can be maximized in a place of darkness not out in the sunlight.

Hashem approaches you and describes the "role" that you will play on earth. It is just like a role in a play in the theater. It's not you. Your true identity is that of a Soul. But once we are jettisoned through the vestibule that connects the world of souls to this world and we land into a completely new world we forget where we came from. Entirely. It's like the movie the men in black where they wave this instrument that makes you forget everything you just saw. You also forget all of your past lives too.

So Hashem tells you before you go down; where you will be born, who your parents are, grandparents, siblings, extended family, where you will lives, your personality, talents, abilities, inclinations, the century in which you will live, etc. More than that, Hashem describes all the things that he is necessarily going to make happen in your life, (unless you really choose off course- and you can) who you will marry, your children, profession, who you will meet, know, be friends with etc, more than that the situations and predicaments you find yourself in and more than that are the challenges you will face. As you ask for more info on the latter and Hashem describes the challenges and their difficulties, some of them unimaginable, - you say "really"? I am going down for that? Hashem tells you even more. Thing after thing will happen with no stop. You say "I must be a bad boy". Hashem says let me explain.

First of all not only are you a good boy but I love you so much and only want the best for you. For your own sake I want you conquer these challenges through your own efforts, your choices -of course I will be there but not enough so that you won;t think that you are doing it. If you notice enough you will experience it that I will be right there, you'll intuitively know it, and I will help you but it will truly be your accomplishment. You ask "Hashem why so hard, so much, so constant"?

Hashem explains "you are almost a Tzadik in my book" - you have been down on earth many times perfecting your soul and earning eternity through your choices. You are so special. There are a few areas in which you are lacking perfection. The more specific unique challenges I throw at you it will be like I am doing surgery for you and challenging those exact areas you need to grow in. If I didn't care so much, If I didn't love your so much, if you hadn't accomplished so much in your past lives, if I didn't think you can do it and rise to the occasion - I just wouldn't bother. If I gave you a life without challenges, frustrations, disappointments, hardship, hard work etc - you might and more likely choose a life of leisure, comfort, luxury, - develop habits of laziness,complacency, self centeredness, selfishness, etc -of course you can still choose those things. The bottom line is what you do with the cards you are dealt with and choose to live a life of truth, meaning, wisdom, goodness, love - choose to be a giver and refine your character to be as holy and godly as possible.Despite anything I throw in your way in fact make it despite anything I throw in your way. be an example and teach for others and I will take great notice of it.

You want more of an explanation in detail. Hashem then shows you in great depth and detail how all your circumstances that you will find yourself in, all the divine providence of situations that will occur in your life- from the nicest and most beautiful to the most ugly, frightful and distressing, Hashem will show you how it all exactly, specifically is designed to help you accomplish what you uniquely are here to accomplish. Nothing more, nothing less.
Hashem only gives you what is best for you, exactly want you need for our own sake. In the end Hashem gives you a choice, this is what I want to do for you - what do you say? You have a choice not to go down to earth, you have a choice not to go along with it - but.... you know Hashem loves and you know that all he does is for your best - not from a stand point of faith-you're a soul now-you know.

Last part for now (maybe until later- yes another car pool)

We are still working towards explaining what is it about us and our own contributions to our thoughts that makes reality appear a certain way for us? What inside of of us influences the way we see things - next part

In the mean time-know that so many of our thoughts -even sometimes when they appear so true, so intuitive, so clear are for us to reject (this also is a choice whereby we earn and build ourselves)

Good Shabbos